Are you a "fixer"?

Have you ever met someone who you would consider a "fixer" kind of person? What do I mean by that? I mean that whenever something is wrong, that person tries to help, regardless of whether or not the thing that is wrong has a direct effect on them or not. I am one of those people. I always want to fix things, and usually, I prefer to do it on my own. I prefer to figure things out on my own. I prefer to get it done the way I want to, without the help or input of another person. I have dated guys in the past that I was determined to fix. I always try to mend past friendships whether or not they are toxic. When people I love are going through a hard time, I try to do whatever I can to help fix it. Whether it be emotionally, mentally, physically, or even financially. I am a fixer. Have you ever noticed that sometimes the people you know to be fixers always try to fix and help everyone around them and tend to forget about themselves? Or once they do try and help fix their own problems they don't ask anyone for help and turn down any and all help that is offered. The last blog post I wrote to you guys, I was vulnerable and told you about how I was feeling in my relationship with God. I talked to you about how I felt lukewarm. How I felt like the fire inside of me was slowly dying out. I knew how to fix it. I knew what I needed to do. I told you guys I knew what I needed to do. I am a fixer, of course, I knew how to do it. Here is the problem I faced at first, I wanted to fix the problem on my own. I was ashamed of the problem I was facing. I was ashamed that I let myself get to the point I was at. I was ashamed of how someone who was supposed to be setting an example and being a disciple for God, allowed themselves to get to that point. Until I finally for once decided I didn't and couldn't fix this on my own. I knew I couldn't solve this problem by myself, no matter if I wanted to or not. I needed God. Wanna know the amazing thing about God? God saw me struggling. He saw me drifting and becoming lukewarm. God knew I would try and solve the problem on my own. God knew that I needed Him. He knew that I couldn't do it alone, but He allowed me to figure it out on my own. He knew I was ashamed of how I felt and how I had been acting, yet He never once stopped loving me and watching over me and caring for me. Since I wrote my last blog, I have been working on myself. I have been allowing God to help me ignite that fire again. I have been putting my pride aside and allowing God to work. I am still a work in progress, but aren't we all. We are all human. None of us are perfect. We ALL need God. We need help sometimes. Do not let your pride stand in the way. 1 John 2:16 states, "For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life—is not from the Father but is from the world." Pride does not come from the Father, it comes from the world. The Devil was using my pride to prevent me from growing closer to the Father and I was allowing Him to do so, without being aware of it completely. I am here to tell you that there is no person that is free from the attacks of the Devil. The Devil will attack anyone and everyone in whatever ways he can when he sees you drawing closer to God and further from the world. The Devil knew that I would want to try and fix myself without God. He knew that my pride would prevent me from allowing God to help. He used my weaknesses to his advantage and I allowed him to do so at first. But the awesome thing about God is that there is nothing too big for Him. He can overcome ANYTHING. There is no amount of space that can come between the love He has for His children that will ever completely separate us from Him. I am so thankful for the love of God. I am so thankful that He is there whenever I need Him and all I have to do is allow Him to be. Allow Him to speak to me. I am still a work in progress, but each day I wake up with the mindset to grow in my relationship and walk with God and to serve Him daily. To be a reflection of who He is and the love He has for all of us. I fall short sometimes, but He is always there to pick me up when I do. I pray that anyone who is experiencing something similar turns to God. Stop trying to be the fixer and do it alone. There is no need to and it will never work out. You can never be fully satisfied with the cures of this world. You need Jesus. He will ignite the fire within you again. He will draw you closer to Him again through His love, mercy, grace, and His Word. I pray that you allow Him to do so. I love you guys. I am so thankful to have each and every one of you beside me through this journey I call life. I am happy to call you all my brothers and sisters in Christ. We are all fighting our own battles and experiencing our own journeys, but we never are doing it alone. I am always here for each and every person who reads this and needs someone. So glad to serve a God that is the ultimate fixer of both our hearts and minds. So thankful for His love. So thankful for His grace. So thankful for His mercy. So thankful He is always watching over us.